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much ado about nothing

I am finding it difficult to blog. I have had a big day today....but not newsworthy. For a couple of days in a row, I have logged into white page, read some of the new blog entries of others, then stared blankly at the screen of my new entry page. (Yes indeed...I have allowed myself to become intimidated by the general cleverness or bold openess of the rest of you) Once it was for almost 15 minutes. I suppose I'm not really surprised at this; I am the kind of person who can actually watch grass grow!! I approach the world carefully and with (too much) deliberation. I do stop and smell the roses. And I think. Alot. Way too much. I was once accused (by my action orientated mother) of living only in my head. And she was partly right. I overthink to the point of paralysis sometimes. (I'm doing it again now, aren't I!?)

This is not to say that I am not busy, because I am. I work, I study and I raise three children  by myself. There isn't usually a given moment of any day when I don't have at least 300 other things to do. But who doesn't? We are all busy, and life is a series of choices and priorities. And just so happens that sometimes I choose to sit back, relax and do nothing, which is nice....but it sure makes shitty material for blogging!!

Tomorrow, I will pack my day full of adventure, so I can feel confident in writing an entry that will be read and enjoyed by someone else. And, in the event of this not happening, I will make something up! ;-)

k jumps in

Well, finally...I begin! What is this new craze with blogging? Why do we do it? I know that blog =  weblog... and I gather by reading others, that it is usually some kind of online diary. I have kept a diary for a large part of my life, but most parts would be too boring to publish and some parts might have me drawn and quartered!

In my web travels and tangles (so easy to get side-tracked in here), I have  come across some deeply moving, thought-provoking, roflmao hilarious and interesting blogs. I have also come across some that are none of these things, and sadly mine may also fall into this latter category. So this brings me back to my earlier question, why do we do it? Or, more aptly, why am I?

I know that in the grand scheme of things, my life is pretty ordinary. I find some parts interesting, even quite enjoyable....but I certainly don't expect anyone else will. It feels really quite pretensious of me, because even though, I like the idea of legions of fans logging on daily to read my latest adventure...I know in my heart of hearts that I have very few adventures, and even less fans.

I might just have to book myself a world tour, just so I can find a reason to justify to myself blog ownership. (Donations to this worthy cause will be gratefully accepted, as self funding could take some time.)

Perhaps, I will just console my anxieties by simply looking at blogging, like owning a block of land. It feels like you have your own little piece of the world. So this is my little piece of the world! I know I arrived late....but I'm here, and I'm excited, even if no-one else is.