Update October 21st

Posted on October 21, 2006 at 1:13 PM - Post Comment

Hello.

Not very much to report today. I have been very busy, no time for creativity. I'm boring!!!!

And in news just to hand, today is my last shift here at my old job.

Too many reasons to explain, but it is time to be normal, well as normal as God made me to be. I tend to do too much and that means I cant focus as well on what I do. I get tired etc and it makes me feel like a fialure. I frequently feel like I fail, but my head knows I fail because I try to do too many things. I mean seriously!! I work a fulltime job that I am still learning, plus a parttime job that screams demanding attention, I host a home group, I do the suppers nearly every fortnight on the same day I work from 6am, go to church twice on Sundays, plus fellowship and then I beat myself up because my house has more dust than Im happy with and the weeds are out of control (in my eyes anyhow).

I want to help a friend out with some systems she needs to implement, I want to have more time with my daughter on the weekend, I want to have that garage sale Ive been talking about for 3 months, I want to catch the bus to work and read my bible on the bus again. I want to be home before midnight on a week night, every night of the week. I want to be able to cook dinner not grab something in between jobs, yuck. Is that so wrong?

I have the power to change that situation, so rather than whinge about it I am going to change it.

Next step, housemate.

and so much for not having anything to say!

Bec.