Deeply Reflective

Posted on September 19, 2006 at 4:53 AM - Post Comment

Its 5.10 am at work. I am sitting at my desk, in the job the new manager thinks I hate, feeling devastatinkly tired, watching a bug crawl across ... ok, bug gone, tabacco droppings swept off the desk and trying to feel normal.

I do love my job, I love the work, I love the drivers, I love the customers, I love that I can express who I am here and that Im accepted. Im a Christian in my workplace, that is an awesome privelege and responsibility. One of the girls from the office who I havent seen in weeks, I saw yesterday for the big management meeting. We were all happy to see her but I gave her this big hug and genuinely told her how missed she was. That was great, not a lot of hugging goes on here so its really nice when it does and I just couldnt express myself in a better way. Wow, three years ago I was definitely not a hugger. My God has grown me much.

Its funny, I read my previous post (FLAME) and used such words as deeply vulnerable and the title for this one is deeply reflective. God is most definitely opening me up, I WAS not a person who had deep emotions, but now I do, good loving kind ones in fact and now I am secure enough (usually) to express them. God is good! At the same time I am being challenged in terms of my tongue, some things are best kept close to your heart, between you and God only (at least for a time).

I am deeply satisfied with life at the moment. Gods goodness is amazing.

Last night (at 11pm, what was I thinking? I had to be up by 4am) I was watching the DVD from the final night of Influencers 06. Its the night I got the word to give up someone I really wanted. Watching it again it was like a completely different sermon, the agenda God had that night was different to the agenda last night. The agenda He had last night was about Hearing from Him, not taking a step until you do so.  It was the story of Abraham leading his son up the mountain to be a sacrifice unto the Lord but right at the moment he's about to give his sons life back to God, God tells him to turn around and there he sees a ram tied up the thickett. God himself had supplied the offering.... but if Abraham couldnt hear from God or wouldnt be flexible to the new message from God his son would have been slaughtered and then he would have seen the ram. Obviously Bishop Jakes went so much deeper into the text and it was incredibly (deeply, even) profound.

I know that I hear from God but I dont give myself enough opportunities to be led by Him in every area of this life hes given to me.

At the end of it, how do you hear from God??? Well its interesting, it comes down to removing the noise in your life. The distractions, the frustrations, that static in the background yelling at you for your attention. Why's that interesting? because the theme of our Nooma DVD at life group this week is about the same thing, Noise.

Bring it on!

Bec.