The Dr & June

Posted on 11/9/2005 at 12:20 AM - 0 Comments - Post Comment - Link

Well, this has been 12 months coming, it all began approximately a year ago - almost to the day.  I have been blissfully and happily married and very much in love with my husband since I was 21 (11 years to be exact) no other man ever existed until that day - that changed it all.....

THE DR

There are moments in time when everything seems to stop, for no apparent reason, and while we are left standing still the two of us side by side, complete strangers to each other the world around us is moving faster than we would ever be aware, for in our private universe we are all that exists at that moment, and when the gates were opened again, we moved forward but we moved forward together and did not say goodbye, two strangers who have not become the best of friends.... and there appears to be no reason why or no way of turning back.

She knocked on his door and he opened with a smile and hello, he had just got out of the shower and his hair was still a little wet, but he smelt beautiful and she was surprised at how nice his body was in his tight grey t shirt and jeans, she moved forward to kiss him on the cheek and as her lips kissed his cheek she pulled back and they both looked at each other and started kissing passionately, they kissed and grabbed at each other like they were the last two peop;le on earth and they had no time left, they pulled away and tried to gather some composure as they had already discussed that having sex would be wrong they hardly knew each other and she was afterall, married with children.   He was much younger than her and his conservative upbringing would forbid and never accept such a union.  They walked down the hall, his arms around her body and soon found themselves once again passionately kissing he pushed her up against the wall and ran his hand up inside her t shirt, she felt like electricity was charging through her body and was instantly wet she had not experienced a feeling like this in so long, she desperately wanted to abandon all her beliefs for this moment of absolute desire, nothing existed except for him and once again they pulled away, this became a game until finally he had her on the kitchen bench legs wrapped around his waist and clothes being peeled off and her fear of such a young wonderful man seeing the ravages her body had incurred through giving birth to two children scared and shamed her as once again she pulled away from him.

This was the moment, the person that changed everything for me.  A respectable middle class, well to do woman with two lovely kids a successful loving husband.  Something happend that day that made me cross the line, a line I never believed I would pass, but I did and although thi s person would never really have me sexually, completely, this one event opened up a world of excitement and adventure that no matter how hard I tried I could not turn my back on.

Then came the unexpected, love, intensity, emotional obligation, feelings and desires and a recognition of who I am and not what I had become. It has been the hardest and most wonderful year of discovery, now I am finally becoming the women I should be and realising that I am an individual with my own feelings, desires and thoughts and not just a mother and wife.  I am not conventional and be dammed if I will conform and live a life which is not challenging and passionate.  June Cleaver was so wrong.